Party on the Deck

I woke up in what you might call a non-loving kind of mood, and I hate when I do that. Suprisingly, the kids were in not-so-loving moods all day also. Maybe there is a correlation. I feel bad that I can effect my kids that way. On the way home from the Chuck E Cheese marathon, we went to Speedway and it turned things around. I just decided that it was time for a switch. Now I have had these thoughts before, that it was time to start working hard again and getting things done that needed to be done. I have listened to others, followed the example of people I know and it has really got me down. The problem is, my whole life, if there has been an excuse to be made for not doing something, I usually wouldn't fall prey to that. These days it happens pretty frequently. The big test is tomorrow. How will I wake up? I realize that it is a big key to loving myself and that loving others and you will follow. Can I get the discipline? Lord, help me be the person you want me to be!